From the 1,000’s of emails I’ve received and 100’s of individuals I’ve spoken to over the last 15 years, Andrews story is far from unique. Sadly it is all too common and has been happening in Pentecostal and Evangelical churches in Australia for decades.
Andrew shared his story at the recent launch of ‘A Life of Unlearning’ (3rd edition)
- What is it like when you come to realise you are gay in a church that believes it is a sin?
- How does leadership respond when you feel brave enough to share your secret?
- What does one have to work through, once you realise you no longer belong?
“My world instantly collapsed. Leadership asked me to leave the worship team. I was asked not to tell anyone and as a result I became incredibly isolated in my sin.
I sobbed most of those days. I felt numb. I feared that this sense of evilness and isolation would never end. My friends of 10 plus years were not able to offer support or love because they were kept totally in the dark.
I was encouraged to exercise to enhance my masculinity, we prayed the demons off my back and I was sent to an outside minister for counselling who had a specialisation in homosexuality and more earth shatteringly for me …………child sex offenders.
I felt evil beyond words. I felt demons crawling all over my body and the depths of despair cannot be described here in this speech. The identity I had curated within God’s eyes had vanished overnight.”
Andrew shares his story movingly and with humour. No doubt you’ll laugh and cry as many did on the night.
Sadly I was treated the same during the eighties. The time condemnation was felt from the then AOG church and its Youth Alive program a time when pastor Ven Brown ministered from the pulpit.
There is forgiveness in time for those that perpetuated the discussion of one sin being greater than another. There is also forgiveness for oneself after living within this movement from a child.
There are many of us Andrew. Sadly the stories are coming out now. Change will happen.
There are more than plenty of gay churches that a homosexual can attend. There are no good reasons to demand that Bible-affirming Churches submit to LGBT political goals.
Richard……I’m not sure what you mean be demanding. There is nothing at all about that in this article.